The Man I Met {You Can Meet Him Too}

Today, I am met with a man. A man who probably isn’t that much different from me. In Luke 5, we meet a man who is covered with leprosy. The disease has ran its course, and reached its capacity.

. . . And, he is sicker than he has ever been.

The Emotions

 It so happened that, as Jesus was in one particular town, there was a man whose body was riddled with a virulent skin disease. When he saw Jesus, he fell on his face. ‘Lord,’ he begged, ‘if you want, you can make me clean.’ – Luke 5:12

Illness brings heavy emotions, difficulty thinking, and crazy sleeping patterns, which admittedly is on top of the “typical” symptoms of our health issue.

While emotions can be beautiful and exhilarating, it can be a heavy burden to carry as well.

The emotions might be worse than the actual medical condition. It sticks to our side like glue, and reminds us of what we do not have. It reminds us of the past we cannot go back to, where we once had our family/friends and a place to call home.

. . . This is what this leper faced, and the reality for many of us on a daily basis. 

The life we once knew is – dissolved. Our new life is confusing. And, rarely understood by those nearest to us. They know not the debilitating emotions we struggle with. Even if it is suffocating, others often do not see the enormous burden we carry.

. . . But there is One who knows exactly what we face, as He is the only One who can carry us through this mess!

The Jesus I Know

I appreciate this man who is known only by his debilitating condition, because he knew the struggle, experienced the heavy emotions, and went running to King Jesus! He ran until he reached Jesus, because he knew Jesus is the answer.

. . . Jesus loved him {and us} and delights in taking care of us {just as He delighted in caring for this broken man}.

This Jesus is the same one who holds my heart. Jesus came, went to the cross, died and rose again to be with me. So, I may have peace with my Father.

My heart is safely held by Jesus, even on my worst day.

. . . He is my Protector, Comforter, and Friend.

This man encountered Jesus, and was changed.

Jesus stretched out his hand and touched him. ‘I do want to,’ he said. ‘Be clean.’ And the skin disease disappeared immediately. – Luke 5:13

Honestly, this is enough to bring me to my knees. The man ran to Jesus, and was wholly welcomed as he was. We are, too.

Our Invitation

Just as Jesus welcomed this man, we are welcomed and invited to come running to Him right now. We don’t have to wait until x, y, and z resolves itself. We can come to Jesus right now.

. . . Jesus invites us to come to Him. Weariness, heavy circumstances, and all, we are invited to simply come to Him.


What My Heart Says – Part 2

Recently, I shared a tool in my chronic illness toolbox to make my life easy (or easier, I should say). It’s new to me. I have felt led to try Whole30 before, but never actually did. Not until 22 days ago. But, the plan I am utilizing – isn’t strictly Whole30. It is a combination of Whole30, Low-Histamine eating plan.


Because this works!

I know, I need accountability to keep going.

Otherwise once day 30 hits (Monday!), I can tell you exactly how it will go. Because I have had “moments” of it’s-no-big-deal-I-can-have-that-on-a-technicality-scale. No. I need accountability.

Thankfully for me, I have facebook friends who are on similar journeys. A couple friends I have known for quite a while actually, have made a facebook accountability group.

At This Point…

I should give you my “why’s”. Why am I doing this?

  • Because I am sick of feeling like junk every time I eat something I shouldn’t.
  • Because I am sick of not knowing what’s actually wrong with me.
  • Because I am sick of being unhappy, for lack of trying (Food affects our mood. It affects depression and anxiety).
  • Because I want to be healthier.
  • Because I want to be able to keep up with those I love (especially the kids in my life).
  • Because I want to have the energy I need.
  • Because I want to be able to serve God on a more active level.

Then, there is one more. Perhaps, this is the best of all reasons.

I know this way of eating is something God is calling me to, and I need to be obedient. I can’t keep praying for healing, yet ignore the directives God is giving me for my life.

How can I say “no” or continue to walk in defeat, when God has readily given me the materials I need to write “success” over every aspect of my life?

The Catalyst

It’s not just about the eating.

It’s not just about the exercise.

It is about honoring God in every single aspect of my life. It is about walking this narrow path, where I seek after God and choose to honor Him. Despite my wants, it’s about gaining a heart of devotion. A heart that chooses God over every other option I have in my life.

This is the “why” of my life. Why I am choosing to make this decision to stay on this path, and get accountability to help with the journey. This is why I want to eat healthier and figure out what works for me. And, why exercising is a part of “the plan”.

Whole30 -&- Low Histamine (The Diet)

The Link.

I am learning there is so much that can be made, with the foods I am given access to (and it can taste just as good if not better, than its counterparts). And, these are things that I don’t have to worry about – making me worse. I don’t have to concern myself about a bad food reaction, when I follow God in eating this way. I am learning this is the path God wants me to walk in.

This is God choosing to hear and answer my prayers (and the prayers of many who placed themselves in His Awesome Presence and bring my needs before the Father).

This is how God is choosing to heal me. Through learning what foods leave me without any (or less) negative effect(s). It is about gleaning understanding about how foods affect me, and learning to heed the warnings they offer.

That’s what this is.

Here to Stay

On this journey of Whole30, I am learning a lot more than I thought I ever would. I am experiencing more transformation than I thought I would, too. While the scale may show a minimal loss, I have lost much on this eating plan.

Here are my Top 5.

  • Decrease of symptoms.
  • My blood pressure is within normal (ish) range now, when it had been as low as 50/30 for months.
  • I have energy (and can stand!)
  • I am perhaps the happiest I have ever been.
  • Depression and anxiety levels are much lower now.


5/4/15 – What Do I Have to Give?

It’s been a rough evening. Ironic, since I was actually better physically during the day. Much I could agonize over. Much I could cry over. Instead, turning my eyes toward my Creator and thankful for the comforts I do. Though I came home feeling unwell and with a sorta heavy-heart, what do I have?

  • I have God’s Word written on my heart.
  • I have a comfortable bed to relax in.
  • I have a working fan by my bed.
  • I have medicine that helps my body. I notice when I have forgotten to take it. The only reason I didn’t forget to take it tonight, was because I felt unwell.
  • I can watch my tv shows on my laptop.
  • I have food to eat.

My list of thankfulness needs to be just as important (if not moreso) than my list of complaints and struggles. While it doesn’t take away my struggles, it adds to my reality… It adds to my life. It reminds me about what I have been given by my Creator… It reminds me of the Hope I have – that won’t be taken away by circumstances. One struggle I have tonight is, the reality that I can’t have a specific time with God. Some have those appointment times with God. My days are….imbalanced, and I am finding that reality difficult to handle tonight. Tomorrow has the potential to be better. My hope still remains in Christ, even when my days are imbalanced. Even though it’s imbalanced by symptoms I can’t control, God still loves me so much that He sent His Son Jesus to die on the cross for me and rose Him on the third day… just so He can be with me. It doesn’t have to “look” a certain way. I may not have much to offer, but He loves and cherishes what I do have to give.