What’s Next, Lord?! {{Trials Tuesday}}

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Earlier, I read something that struck a chord with me.

My times are in Thy hands. I’ll always trust in Thee. And after death at Thy right hand, I shall forever be (Hymnist William Lloyd).

Like a child, I need to come to our Abba – Father, our great God, asking deep questions. I am pondering the future and what it may include. It’s hard. I don’t know what the rest of this year holds in store, but I wish I did.

Thankfully for us, there is a Scripture on this exact thing –

My times are in Your hands; Rescue me from the hand of my enemies and from those who pursue and persecute me (Ps. 31:15, AMP).

God’s Word even tells us that our days. . . our lives are lovingly placed in His hands. He is the One who can turn everything out for good. He is the One who needs to lead us.

Choosing to Draw Nearer

Friends, let’s keep drawing nearer to our King Jesus and see what He tells us. Very much, He wants to speak to us one on one about our difficult situations. I don’t know what you are facing, but thankfully our Risen Lord does!

Let’s recall what His Word says –

Your eyes saw me when I was formless; all my days were written in your book and planned before a single one of them began (Ps. 139:16, CSB).

We know that all things work together for the good of those who love God, who are called according to his purpose (Rom. 8:28).

You yourself have recorded my wanderings. Put my tears in your bottle. Are they not in your book? Then my enemies will retreat on the day when I call. This I know: God is for me (Ps. 56:7-8).

Our grace filled heavenly Father is for us, and knows what is going on behind the scenes. He sees us in the midst of our trials, and He knows the good things He has planned for our lives. He knows how the trials will bring out good things in the long run, even if we are utterly convinced that no good can come from it.

Come, Friends

Come to Him as His dearly loved children, my friends. God is our good Father. He absolutely sees us and has great purpose for us. He loves us and wants to experience an intimate relationship with us – through His Son Jesus Christ. This is why He came.

I don’t know how God will turn out things for my good, but I do know that He is good. Even if I get tempted to think He won’t work things out, deep down I know He is good. Sometimes, I just need to take a step back and remember He is good. He is really good, and knows what He is doing.

Friend, just keep drawing nearer to our Lord Jesus. Don’t be afraid to ask Him the big questions in prayer, but ask the seemingly small ones too. Our God is a Mighty God, and He is able!

Asking Him,

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New Year’s “Hang Over”

Tonight is New Year’s Eve. I made a plan last week to go out to a little party thing. Today, I tossed and turned about going. The habit of living fearlessly is something we can all pursue. I do, for the most part, try and keep on the fearless mask. However this whole “fearless” act I have going on, well I was not that for a good part of today.

I am one of those people whose personality traits include: introversion and being highly sensitive (otherwise known as HSP).

Obviously, it sounds easier to stay home at this point. Right? I mean, I could have used pouring rain as an excuse. I have loads of excuses, besides the valid one of “people freak me out” (a whole new level of honesty, I know). I really do love people, friends, family, random strangers I connect with, as long as I have room in my human interaction cup.

I literally have nothing to offer anyone if my human interaction cup is full

Excuses Versus . . .

I had a moment of realization tonight. I do things like attend social gatherings, when part of me struggles with it, because I want to honor God with my entire life. If it wasn’t for God, I would not push past the fears or moments of struggling to face the world when my spirit is hung over (detailed explanation below). It’s pretty simple for me. They say you need a “why,” for goals and such.

Here is my why: I don’t want to miss out on opportunities to bless God, because I was too afraid. So, I wrestle between being fearful versus fearless. On one side, I have introversion where human interaction can literally suffocate my spirit. And on another, I have the hindrance of being a highly sensitive person where too much stimulation causes me to run away and never return if given the option.

I want Jesus, my King, to be lifted high in my life. And I know, God can do miraculous things – even when I am scared out of my mind.

… Jesus is why I can step out of my comfort zone and face peopling, even when my spirit screams “I am done for the week. I need silence!”

The Hang Over

With peopling and being overstimulated (noise, lighting, people, reacting more deeply, etc), I face something I call a “hang over”. It is simply from overwhelming my spirit. My spirit becomes intensely weighed down, that it is hard to interact with anyone in a meaningful conversation or watch a favorite show without adding to it. My spirit is just scattered, beyond overwhelmed, and struggling to just get through it. My spirit, in some ways, becomes paralyzed. Everything becomes difficult. That is the best way to describe it to a non-introvert.

… And, the answer is “recharging”. I have to take a “time out,” and allow myself to recover. I have to allow myself the time and space to process and recover from the past few days or weeks of human interaction and a heavy load of stimuli.

Jesus Christ, my Beloved Savior, is the One who walks me through this process of welcoming the new year and process through the past few days or weeks.

 

Trusting My Training

I am learning to trust my training. Not in the way others might. Trusting God is the foundation. God equips us for the good work He wants us to do. Whenever God calls us , He will equip us. We don’t have to entertain those thoughts about if we should be doing something. If God has opened the door, He will carry us through the process of walking through the door in obedience… as long as we are willing to go.

Recently I have been editing and reviewing the contents of my study of John 14, I am learning that I have to trust my training. I have to trust God first and foremost. I have to continue to pray for wisdom. But, I have trust (as in not second guess) that I am qualified to do what God has called me to do. I have to trust in His timing as well… Though not often is it formal training, God will prepare us for every good work He has in store for us.

Questions to Consider:

  • Will we walk through the door in obedience, and God-confidence?
  • Will we continue to allow those thoughts to creep in or choose to apply 2 Corinthians 5:10 to our thought patterns.

2 Corinthians reminds us of what will help us in the long run: The Message describes this process as “tearing down barriers” (thoughts)… that are contrary God’s Word. We need to “[fit] every loose thought and emotion and impulse into the structure of life shaped by Christ.. “. Is my fear of failing contrary to what God teaches me in His Word and the Holy Spirit? Yes, most definitely.  A lot of our thought patterns need to be removed, as we (or myself) pursue a more spirit-filled lifestyle.

As I walk in obedience through composing this e-book, I have to trust God will be glorified and give me exactly what I need.

Disciples of Nations

I am coming to a place of realizing that it’s about more than ‘fishin’ for people’. It’s more than witnessing. It’s more than words. It’s more than actions. It’s more than bringing people to Jesus Christ. It is more. It is so much more than all that. It all comes together! Jesus reminds us that it is so much more. It commands that it be so much more:

“Go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” (Matthew 28:19-20)

As an introvert, I may do that differently. My life is a testimony. I may not walk right up to random stranger, and say something an extrovert would say. The bigger picture I learned yesterday is that desire to see people come to Jesus has to be greater than the fear/anxieties I wrestle with. Today, that reminder is discipling, building community, and edifying the body of Christ has be so much bigger than those same fears and anxieties.

I found a Bible verse today that I am barely understanding. I would say I have never seen the verse before, but I probably have. I probably skipped over it. Not realizing its significance, because I am human and that stuff happens. It is only through these last few days of going to share my faith in action not so much words, that I am being given understanding and can appreciate it. In 2 Corinthians 2, we are called to spread Christ’s fragrance everywhere. From right where we are to wherever He takes us. Begin today. Trusting Him to take control, give us the right words, work in others’ hearts. He is all powerful! He can do all this, and so. much. more.

As I said, today’s reminder is this applies to discipleship, building up my community of fellow believers, and taking new risks to put myself in a place where I can build up the body of Christ (even joining new small groups, etc). As an introvert, those risks are serious. They are dangerous. As a Christian, we are called to “count the cost” of following Jesus. As I count the cost (feeling uncomfortable, anxiety, and fears), I know He is greater. Scripture says, we are to be courageous and strong. The only way we can do that is by reaching the end of ourselves, and reaching out to God- placing our trust in Him!

A really good teaching that is helping me is one called “Dangerous” by Chris Walton (from July 27th, 2014). Check it out. It may help you also. We all have new ways we need to be challenged in our walk with Christ. Challenged to share our faith with others, to learn about Jesus Christ ourselves to understand His sacrifice and He paid our price, and His undying love for us, to be more consumed with Him than our fears, and seeking to build up the body of Christ.

Last but certainly not least: “Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing.”