This has been one-of-those-weeks, where I have spent my days making sure the wheels-keep-on-turning, the laundry isn’t piling up, cooking meals, and other tasks that seem mundane, yet overwhelming, all at the same time.
I have this problem.
It’s called – “I forget how God has wired me.”
So, I have missed self-imposed deadlines this week.
* This week’s “Making the Journey” post (possibly Sunday or Monday, it “should” be up and ready to be devoured by hungry spirits like yours and mine – as we seek the Lord God to be the One to fill us up entirely!)
*The month of March’s reading plan posts (found on the Facebook page) are lagging too. Finally last night around midnight (erm, I guess, that would make it this morning), I posted March 1-4. I have not been able to stay caught up on the reading plan for a long time. See, I am a writer. In order to get the most out of my quiet time (time spent in the Word of God), I need to be writing and studying deeply.
I let the inability to pursue perfection, to keep me from something designed – to help me meet more with my Perfector!
*Lagging on editing one manuscript, and beginning the process of formatting a new study that I wanted to embark on (possibly for March…).
*Behind in my personal Bible study. It is the final week of the Armor of God study. It’s been such a good study, too. But, I am hoping to get back into it slowly on a not-overwhelming-my-human-spirit level.
*And seriously, you don’t even want to get.me.started. on being behind in reading and reviewing books I have selected or agreed to review. Whichever, on some level, I have committed to this and other things that I somehow just haven’t gotten to yet.
Back to the Wiring Thing…
When God was making me, He made me a highly sensitive, need for serious down time, introvert. God knew exactly what He was doing, when He knitted me together in my mother’s womb. He made me a highly sensitive introvert.
“For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s
womb. I praise you because I am fearfully
and wonderfully made; your works are
wonderful, I know that full well. My frame
was not hidden from you when I was made in the
secret place, when I was woven together in the depths
of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be. How precious to me are
your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them!”
It is truly a blessing to be a highly sensitive introvert. I just don’t have the ability to keep chuggin’ along. But, here’s my downfall: I try being like everyone else. And, the way I am wired reminds me that I have a Creator who made me perfectly and formed me in a specific way. I was not meant to be like everyone else. I may try to put on this “energizer bunny” performance act, but then I remember….
Highly Sensitive, at that.
I need to take the time to unwind and mentally process everything I have been exposed to. It isn’t enough to survive the day, but I must process the day. I must allow myself the time and space to take those precious extra steps to take care of me.
I have been neglecting the “process” aspect of my life. I expect to continue with loud noise and stimulation, and keep on truckin’. Yeah, okay. My spirit does not work that way. God created me this way for a very reason!
God knew I would be an introvert. A highly-sensitive introvert. God knows I need to take a few several extra steps, to really care for the precious spirit He has given me. And, I need to be more devoted to doing that than feeling overwhelmed – because my method of living (“keep on truckin’”) just isn’t working anymore.
“Come to Me all you who are weary and burdened.”
“Find a quiet space, to meet with God.”
These are the things my sensitive spirit is mindful of today.
Friends, are you an introvert? Highly sensitive?
How do you recharge your spirit?