MMS – Silence

MMSFor the month of October, I am joining many bloggers in a challenge to write every single day for 31 days. I learned about this challenge through another challenge I participate in most weeks. The “Five Minute Friday” challenge is going to expand to last the whole month! Each entry, will be five minutes unedited of writing on a particular theme – found on Kate’s blog.Today’s theme is “silence.”

Anxiety-Filled Heart

In a full fledge anxiety attack, I just need silence.

Desperately need silence.

I hate anxiety.

I hate who I become in these anxious-filled moments.

Please, just…

ssssshhhhhhhh.

Days like these, I feel like I need to wear a sign – “Please, excuse me. I am in the middle of an attack against my human nature. My anxious driven human nature.”

Silence in a Chaotic Spirit

I just need silence. It’s not that those around me, are corrupting me. It’s just that… My spirit is plenty-loud-enough for all of us. Anxious moments remind me of my need to self-isolate and try and figure things out. To quote a song – “Stop the world, I wanna get out/I need an escape away from this crowd/Just to hear You speak to me.”

I can’t face this crowd.

Crowd of noise.

Crowd of pretending I am fine.

Crowd of pretending I am not having a walking-anxiety-attack when I desperately want to be as joyful on the inside as I look on the outside.

I Just…

I just want out. I want out of my skin.

I want to be the me that God created me to be.

I want to find the beauty God has in store for me and those I love.

I don’t want the spiritual war.

I just need silence to navigate the valley of death I must walk through, in order to meet the green pastures God desires to give me. In order to navigate these things, I must go to the Source. I must just “be still” before my Maker, and let Him be the One to help me through these things. I need to embrace the silence and opportunities to allow Him to heal my heart.

Further Reading: Psalm 23

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Author: Stacey Patrick

Stacey is a writer by nature, and blogs over at gracefullyovercoming.me. Stacey loves to write whenever she can. Her writings center around her love relationship with Jesus Christ, His precious words of truth, chronic illness, and singleness. www.instagram.com/gracefully.overcoming/

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