For the month of October, I am joining many bloggers in a challenge to write every single day for 31 days. I learned about this challenge through another challenge I participate in most weeks. The “Five Minute Friday” challenge is going to expand to last the whole month! Each entry, will be five minutes unedited of writing on a particular theme – found on Kate’s blog.Today’s theme is “offer.”
Sometimes, I wonder what I do have have to offer.
These days, I feel so lost.
Let’s rephrase: My body feels lost. There is this jumbo disconnect between the me I want to be – the woman of God I want to be, and the me that I am. It’s not just the walking-in-new-self-transformation-process thing, or maybe it is.
My adjustment in health is a part of the new me.
It is a key part of the new me I am in Christ Jesus. It is through these difficult wilderness moments, that I become the woman of God I want to be. The woman of God I need to be.
I just don’t feel like I have a thing to offer.
I am not able to make it to church most days (as of lately).
I am not fulfilling my commitment to serve in particular areas.
It has a way of affecting me.
What Do I Have to Offer?
This poses the question – “What do I have to offer?” To Christ. To the Church. For now, until healing comes, I need to focus on ways to simply be present as often as I can.
I need to plunge into the Word of God, and trust He will use all these things – the painful things too – for His glory.
In John 9:2-3, we learn that sickness can be (and will be) used for His glory. That’s what I have to offer. My affliction. My time. My good moments. My bad moments. My experiences. My spiritual fruit being formed. Even sharing what God teaches me through His Word – to benefit those who are seeking Christ in the midst of a struggle.
God works all things out, even the bad things.
See Genesis 50:20; Romans 8:28